So a new chapter of my life has been opened. I saw the Berlin Philharmonic play for the first time in my entire life. This is the first time that I've ever seen any orchestra of this level play. The strings were so in tune that there was only power in their notes. It had a certain feel to it. I don’t think that I've ever felt such a thing before. It was as if there was a pulse driving through my ears. The musicians were so tasteful too. You could tell they were all very comfortable and could all play individually very well. Everything was completely together and I think that completely contributed to the big sound they were making and when I say it was a big sound, I mean it was the biggest sound that I have ever heard. I could even here the Bratscher (the violas). I noted that Germany is doing a lot of interesting innovative things with their   Stimmstellung (voicing). The cellos were where the second violins were and the violas were where the cellos go. The concert master played SOOOO well, very sweetly whilst still projecting. Actually when I think about it, the entire orchestra had a very sweet sound. There were a lot of jokes throughout, and though some people may call it silly and unnecessary but I thought it was a true statement of one’s musicianship to make fun of one self. It means there are no inhibitions and that the concert is for the audience not the performed; unfortunately had to please before the applause was over to get back to the hotel. I was so utterly touched by this concert that I couldn't process my feelings. I still mostly can’t. It was wordless, breathtaking art. I want to play in that Orchestra.

I’m going for it…